Date night outfit <3
Im wearing the Christmas present my boyfriend got me, a ralph lauren denim shirt, a cotton tight dress from h&m, and boots from charlotte russe!
We went to go see Catching Fire and I loved it! It was just like the book, unlike the first one which I just about had a coronary about!
So, in other news I am literally on the verge of an anxiety attack, which is the reason for me posting at 1 am. I am so stressed out about how I am going to handle next semester, how I am going to get all these good grades to get me into medical field and lastly how Austin and I’s relationship is on the brink of disaster.
Let me start off by explaining why my boyfriend is driving me nuts. I wear the pants in our relationship, and I mean it. I had to push him to get a job, to want to go to a university, and sometimes to frankly just MAN UP! I always have to take care of EVERYTHING in our relationship and I am just through with it!! A few months ago Austin got a GREAT job at Costco, literally 13 dollars an hour and in 6 months he would receive benefits, perfect right? Well I guess not because he up and quit with no other job to fall back on. However, he at least could still live at wretched Wendy’s house for free so he didn’t have too many worries about the situation. At least that’s what he thought, then one day during our glorious winter break back in AZ he received a phone call from Wendy letting him know that he is no longer going to be able to live with her. So that was a bit upsetting, but honestly I was kind of excited! Finally he would find an apartment and live with roommates and start having a life in Colorado. However, all my dreams were shattered when he told me that after 2 years of working almost 40 hour weeks at dunkin donuts and 3 months of working part time at Costco he had only saved (dun dun dun) 2000 dollars. That’s right, 2000. So, let’s just calculate this for a minute here, he worked at dunkin say 30 hours a week (give or take) for a year and a half with a salary of about 9 dollars an hour, that is equivalent to about 20,000 dollars in earnings. Costco however he should have made about 3600 dollars. Yet, with all that money he managed to save 2000 dollars. I wanted to break up with him right then and there. How could he do this to me? I was hoping to be living with him in 2 years, possibly getting engaged in 5, but how the hell could he ever even afford any of that with 2000 dollars in savings? Biggest. Letdown. Ever.
So, now were going back to Colorado with him having no job, no place to permanently or securely live in and hardly any savings on his end. FUCK MY LIFE.
On the other hand regarding school my schedule is consumed with cheerleading and working, how could I let my college life get to this!? What was I thinking!? The second I am done with cheer will be the biggest relief in my life. I am not good about procrastination and cheer doesn’t give me anytime to do that, so I am going to have to buckle down and face the music. No more hanging out with Austin on my free time, no more Breaking Bad marathons when I could be studying, and no more procrastinating!!!! This semester is not going to be fun, but my GPA is not where it needs to be and I will do whatever it takes to achieve my dream. However, I was so taken back with my final grades that I am a bit discouraged, but I am going to talk to each teacher individually and tell them my target grades and ask them if they have any recommendations and if they wouldn’t mind answering my future questions, because I know I am going to have a ton to achieve my grade goal.
Well Winter break, it’s been fun, but it’s time to get to some serious work and kick ass this semester.
PS sorry about the rant but I probably would have ended up on the bathroom floor hyperventilating if I didn’t do this!